We have been trying to fall pregnant since Elijah was 3 months old. He is now over 2. In March/April I was on Clomid for one month. We didn’t continue because William got that we would need to wait for our Isaac. To us that meant we had to wait for A SPECIFIC baby God wanted to bless us with else I would fall pregnant, just not that specific baby . So we waited, knowing with peace that God would bless us.
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On the 7th of July, In my quite time, I got a Verse in Mark 9v23 “Everything is possible, to Him who believes”. Little did I know what those words would mean to me today.
On the 9th of July I had a recurring dream that filled me with Hope. My dream was of a baby was kicking me and told me: “I am here, you just don’t know about me yet!” I went back to sleep and would dream the same dream again and again. The next morning I told William. He was very positive. I made a trip to the pharmacy and bought a home pregnancy test, which turned positive. I had a blood test just to make sure. We were pregnant.
At my ultrasound scan at 6-7 weeks, the Doctor could not see the baby or heartbeat. I just wanted to get out of his office and he wanted to “console” me and give me drugs for stress. When I got in my car I told God I would not accept this. But I think over the next 10 days I slowly did. William felt our “Isaac” was on the alter, just as Abraham had done, in the biblical days”, so we were ready to accept what happened at our next doctor’s visit (A Better Doctor), The same thing happened. A blighted Ovum/anembryonic pregnancy. We were booked in to go for a Uterus Evacuation (D&C) Today the 18th August. I would be 9 weeks Fetal age. So compare to a normal pregnancy I would be 11 Weeks. We accepted it but were filled with Hope that God had a bigger plan. William prayed that God would put a spanner in the works for us before Monday if it was not His will.
At Church yesterday we were quite accepting of the fact we were destroying whatever was in my womb. I had Hope God would bless us again and everything would be fine.There is a lady prophet that blessed us before we were pregnant with Elijah. She was there yesterday. When i told her what we were doing, she told us the baby is hiding. We needed to give God time for a miracle. We told her we were unsure and would go home and pray and would give her a call later that day.
At home we prayed that God would give us clarity and understanding. I got scripture in Genesis 18. The Angels came to Abraham’s tent and told him Sarah would have a baby. She laughed and the Lord/Angel told Abraham that they would pass them again in a year and she would have a child. We prayed and both felt the need to wait for God and not do things on our own.
We called the hospital to cancel the surgery, our Pastor to submit our plans to Him. He was in agreement. And we called the Lady. She was very glad we had made the decision. If it was any other person to intercede in our plans, we probably would not have listened. But we did submit and are going to the Lady’s house tonight for more prayer and clarity. This morning William was reminded of the Angel that stopped Abraham from sacrificing Isaac at the last minute. William feels Frieda is our Angel, who stopped us from destroying the baby.
There are no medical complications in waiting. If my body miscarries at least I know it wasn’t my decision but a decision from Above. This journey is definitely a test of our Faith and believing that God can do anything for Him who Believes.
We will be diligently praying and meditating and I know that whatever the outcome it will be a journey I will never forget.
There is a website dedicated to Misdiagnosed Miscarriages. There are hundreds of woman that didn’t destroy their chances of having their babies and a few weeks later their babies were seen on sonar with heartbeats and born perfectly.This is also reassuring.
I do believe that my baby is just hiding. Medical Science, although important to us in this day and age, is nothing compared to the power of the God I serve and love.